TWO
THREE

-- Jamie

"I can't make any promises because I die a little
every time I have to break one to you :("

Hahaha that's why you're one of my best friends. I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU!!!! Play nice with my friends lol.

Love Always,
Jamie xoxo

"I'm just sitting here waiting for the sun to shine again,
And now I understand,
The workings of a troubled mind again...
In an instant replay that plays over and over again
Inside my mind, Not a big surprise I'm here again..."

Based on recent events I've deemed myself (for now) incapable of sharing my feelings towards other people. I will tell you why in a moment, but I figured while I'm in the frame of mind I'm in, I will share with you 50 things that you may or may not know about me...

1. I fear pity. Yup. This is the most major reason I don't open up to people, because I'm afraid of them feeling sorry for me and that is something I will do anything to avoid. I fear I show vulnerability which in turn would make the person feel sympathy. Something I do not want.

2. I fully believe in fate, destiny, chance, serendipity. I never used to but everything really does happen for a reason... if we realize it right away or not. Though I know it certainly hinders some of my life choices and such, I will always put my faith into it.

3. I'm constantly looking for a way out; and by this I mean I always feel the need to move, to change, to grow, to expand as a way to separate myself from the world I'm in.

4. Clowns, jesters and mimes will ALWAYS scare the snot out of me.

5. There is only two people in this world that know the true me and unfortunately one of them is myself. The beauty of this was the fact it was by accident... they figured me to a t, and all I could do was nod and smile sheepishly.

6. I think the greatest make out song is 'Since I've Been Loving You by Led Zeppelin'. You should try it out sometime.

7. I am secretly probably the most insecure person you'll ever meet.

8. I am extremely volatile and extremely vengeful.

9. I'm scared to death to know my Mom may not make it to my wedding.

10. There is at least 70 places in this world that I want to and will travel to in my lifetime.

11. I actually despise most children. Some are great... others, I want to strangle.

12. I'm a hopeless romantic, and dumb as a post when it comes to relationships. I'm just a good liar when I sound like I'm giving good advice. (Although ironically it usually is good advice... I just can't apply it to my own life)

13. I will always have my Uncle Roy's bear near me when I sleep.

14. Speaking of sleeping, for the last year and some I haven't gone to bed before 4. (I have been known to fall asleep before then but I'll wake up and be up for a long while after).

15. I love to people watch, and could probably do it all day.

16. Nothing is hotter about a guy then his ability to laugh at himself.

17. I've always said I'm anti drug, however if given the opportunity... I actually think I would try em.

18. I will always give you the last piece of cake. (Metaphorically and sincerely speaking)

19. The Internet and MSN is the greatest form of communication when you can't get the right words out in person. Hence why I save all the important conversations and re read them sometimes.

20. I've certainly had my heart broken, but I will always care about the person... I've just lied and said I don't because I know better.

21. My ideal guy is exactly who my boss is. (No jokes... he's my ideal personality and whatnot... what are the chances lol)

22. My greatest date was still with a "gay" guy lol. Shitty.

23. There is nothing more beautiful then the night sky when you're with someone you care about. I'm all about the magical elements.

24. The heavier music, the better. Loud, obnoxious... I'm a huge fan of it. No one else could get me to enjoy it until I started working at Sport Chek lol. Thanks Kris.

25. I know it sounds morbid and horrible... but I've always had the feeling that I'm going to die young. Weird huh.

26. I could live contently on a deserted island for the rest of my life. Yeah it would suck at moments but I could so live away from society.

27. I'm a sucker for a guy with tattoos. Duh.

28. I fully believe there are influential people who have been in our world that have been a little bit of God... just to influence. Think guardian angel without being restricted to one person. Think, Martin Luther, Gandhi, John Lennon. They influenced the world for the better.

29. Though other languages fascinate me... they also scare me. I hate when people speak another language in front of me. I find it very rude.

30. I often day dream about worst case scenarios... like getting in a car accident, someone coming to the mall with a gun, someone hijacking a plane and wondering if I could do something to prevent casualties or survive.

31. I hate my moles.

32. I can usually tell how genuine a person is by their eyes.

33. I've been electrocuted twice, once by sticking a fork in a socket and second by a spark plug on a water pump engine. Lost feeling in my arm for about half an hour.

34. I've been in 4 potentially life threatening situations.

35. Water sports just generally scare me. I'll try them... but I'm terrified of water sports. Except tubing. Weird.

36. I LOVE only sweet yum yum pickles... but hate every other kind... as well as cucumbers.

37. I have Cassiopeia on my arm. Moles.. shaped like a constellation.

38. I will become Katherine Heigel's character in 27 dresses. I'm pretty confident in that.

39. I owe my entire emotional sanity and so much more, to a person I don't even know exists.

40. It usually takes me a week to go into the water at the lake... the big fish sometimes freak me out and I have to condition myself.

41. I often see if I can find a clue that will tell me if I have some mental or medical disease just to explain some of the emotions and thoughts that I go through, as if I'm looking for an excuse for my actions.

42. I read the things people have written on my door and on my Minaki sign nearly every day at some point, and they always give me a confidence, ego boost or just a smile.

43. In case you haven't figured it out... I'm still comma happy to this day.

44. I don't want to be overly successful. Just to prove a point to my Grandma.

45. I hope that when I get old... I mentally lose it. I could never handle being unable to do things merely because my body aged quicker then my mind. It would be too frustrating.

46. I find the sounds of traffic and sirens soothing when I sleep in Winnipeg.

47. I've been stuck in mud up to my legs and couldn't get out. Someone had to help me.

48. I fall or hurt myself at least once a day.

49. I'm still afraid of the dark and the basement sometimes.

50. Styrofoam packing... those little pieces? I hate the sound of them. Ew.

So that's all I could think of for now... if you have any more questions.. feel free to ask. Though you'll have to catch me in either a good mood... when I'm intoxicated... or sometime when I generally feel like telling you... again... deals with secret number one.

Love Always,
Jamie xoxo