Most random night in the longest time.
Worked until seven, then Danielle and Staci came over to go for bowling.
Met up with some good people, and some not so good people from work, but all around had a general good time.
Then Staci and I take Danielle and Sam home and attempt to go to Dino's to play pool with two people I'd never thought I'd hang out with...
But they call us and want to hang out at his house.
Okay... sweet.
So I definately spent the night with Travis Proproski and Mike Walters.
It was pretty funny.
Mind you they were pretty drunk...
None the less... a pretty good time.
And in the end? Rule #1: Always refuse when asked to 'go in and see the sauna'.

That's all folks.
Two days off... work Tuesday and Wednesday, then....


*drumroll*


SEAN'S HERE! Sweetness.
Night all.
Rollerblade shopping tomorrow.
Mint.

To appease Kate,
I will merely put the songs I recommend downloading because they are songs that make me feel a little better.
Surprisingly, they were sent to me via msn from someone I certainly didn't expect them coming from.

I Will Come To You - Hanson (Don't laugh)
I Dare You - Shinedown
Forever - Papa Roach

Thanks guys.
Nine more days till Sean's here. Boo yeah.
Until then... solid 9 hour shifts until Sunday. Yucky.

So Grandma's here.
I'm ready to shoot myself (or someone else)
But on the happier note... Sean's coming a few days earlier.
Actually two weeks today! (Thursday really)
26th till the 29th.
AWESOME!

On the downer side again.
I think my insides are fucked. Today I've never felt more depressed in my life... for no apparent reason. I really need to go see the doctor.

Night all.

I had a great sleep the other night.

I've also concluded I have to write about my life/family experiences... and sell them to a publishing company... our lives are one for the books. Maybe my family and I should star in our own reality tv show. Oh wow would that be hilarious!

Everyday I still think of him... but I've come to terms that if something will happen... I have all the time in the world... because it's not in my hands anymore.. it never was to begin with.

Even though I have a few reasons to be miserable and unhappy...

The feeling of content in my heart just makes me smile.

Things are good. I couldn't ask for anything more.

[EDIT]

So last night... was pretty flipping rad. Ladies, let's do that more often. Yoshi, Guido, Ee-Z-Ee and Bollywood. Too funny.
We'll get the T-shirts... and it'll be fantastic.
It's times like last night that makes me sad when I leave the city to go to the lake...
But it's in those times of doubt that I know that I can rely on my girls to bring my spirits back up.
Oh, and Sean's coming out the 28th, leaving the 1st of May.
I've missed him! YAY!!!!!



-- Bollywood

I'm still head over heels for him.
I will be probably for a very long time.

But I think I'm going to have to move on because I can't wait around for him.

But the fact of the apology, the hug and the actual verbal conversation? I'd say we're on the road to recovery.

Let's not let that happen again okay?
I think I'll have a good sleep tonight.

It shouldn't hurt this bad... it shouldn't hurt more then the fact of my Mom's illness...
But I've cried over you, more then I have my own Mother.

What's wrong with this picture?
I really wish I could just talk with you.
Actually... I just really wish we could make eye contact again...

I'm stuck in what will most likely be the biggest, most difficult rut in my entire life...

And the tow truck has got a flat tire...