So I'm finally here in the Peg.
Oh wow I had a bawl fest and I couldn't even help it this time. I don't want to be here guys. As much as I hate to admit this... I would much rather be home with my friends in Saskatoon. I cried in the airport... I cried when I got here... and I'm starting to cry now.
It's not fair! I can't find a happy medium when it comes to the summer holidays! I'm not going to see a lot of these people ever again. What the frick.
So I'm here safely, the flight was alright. It's absolutely pouring here... hahaha another frick.
So... here's my messages to everyone:

Tanys --> Hehe have a great summer kiddo! I'll miss you and enjoy those arrowroots!!! Call my Dad when you're planning to go get your present =P Please tell the Hepburnies I'll miss em, especially Tim!! <3

Kayla --> I hope you have a great summer too... hopefully you'll come out to the lake! Did you get my message about dropping a letter off at Jordans? If not... there it is... call my Dad and he'll give you the letter. Thanks! I owe you!

Kaylee --> I'll miss you too! Keep your head on straight and get your butt down to the cottage ASAP darlin! Have a great one... hahaha stay outta trouble! ;P

Everyone else --> I'll miss you!! Hepburnies.. hope Grad went well... I wanna see pictures! Everyone else... have a blast and I'll write you a ton of letters! Love You!

Allie: Hehe I'll see you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOON! =D

P.S. Whomever wants to write me a letter... yup snailmail it... here's the address:

Jamie Shail
c/o Mrs. E. Hodgson
Box 138
Minaki, Ontario
P0X 1J0

Hope to hear from ya!

So here's the lowdown for the four days I was up at Dore lake at Aarons cabin. Oh wow is it like Minaki. SO FUN!

FRIDAY
We leave the city at about 5:00 ish... and well.. drive to Dore lake. So we get down there... they show me around a bit... and then we end up playing a few games before heading off to bed at about 2:00 ish.

SATURDAY
We wake up at about 11-12.oo, have an unreal breakfast of hasbrowns and whatnot, then we suit up in wetsuits and pack up our bags before hoping onto the two seadoos (Oh gosh I want one so bad). Aaron took Kayla and Janine, while I went on the smaller one with Adam. So we drive for about 25 minutes to this beach. Its really nice, and we build a fire and have like a picnic. We looked at ice-tea falls which really looks like ice-tea... or blood... depending on where you look at it. The only problem was the water was a TINY bit cold... but I mean you could walk out SUPER far without the ground dropping... and it was sand. That's awesome... anyone from Minaki would appreciate that! And... there was MAD horseflies and mosquitos. So then.. at about 5:30 we start heading home (we don't know what time it is really) and unpack and clean up... have a massive dinner of like perogies and chicken fingers and whatnot. We played THE loudest game of spoons I think I've ever played in my entire life... holy crap it gets dangerous in the Dobroskay household... then I think we played Monopoly. Then... headed to bed.

SUNDAY
Janine wakes up at about 11 with unreal cramps... like I mean BAD. Poor girl... not the best way to wake up. But eventually she gets alright... and we play some games and whatnot... the weather clears up a bit.. we suit up and go out in the shuttlecraft. From there Kayla and I go tubing for a long time in this two person seated one... holy frick it flies. We stayed on there for a while till I tucked and rolled.... cuz well... one mad wave + second mad wave going to smash = pain OR tuck and roll... and I chose the later. Oh well. After that I chilled on the boat a bit while Aaron took Janine for a ride and Adam fooled around on it... and then Aaron asked if I wanted to drive it... which duh... Obviously I did! So he showed me what to do and we went out for about 10 minutes. Finally I got cocky with the thing hahaha.. not cocky.. I got the nerve to actually move it lol and started pulling out the 360's hahaha and splashed the crap out of Aaron. Totally worth it! So we goofed around on there a bit... then I went tubing by myself... and because it was the two person it was lop-sided.. and would honostly go full out vertical.... SO SCARY! HONOSTLY! then Kayla and I went for a bit longer... hahaha playing duck duck goose with the waves. Hehe... mating season right Kayla? Then we packed it in... Aaron let me fool around on the seadoo a bit more.. note: Do not be cocky with Aaron whilst on a seadoo with him... or he takes control and attempts to take you out of the equation lol! So then he and I hooked up with the boat put the lights on and whatnot... went for a bit of a cruise while we waited for the hitch to get brought down by Arnie talking about boats.. and the similarities with Dore and Minaki.. which I'll get to later... and then we attached it... drove back to the cottage.. when I went back to the beach and washed my hair which was great haha. Then came back for a bonfire with smores and marshmallows! Yum! And then we all crashed pretty early.

MONDAY
So then... we wake up early... pack... watch people sleep a little longer then they should have... clean pack and whatnot... drive home... drive 20 minutes for Aaron to realize he left his 1 year anniversary ring Janine gave him on the seadoo back at the cottage... so we go back and get it. Then we hit construction... and then we stop... have ice cream... and come home eventually... and we all ended up sleeping at some point during the trip.
So now I'm home... and I'm happy.. but I would love to go back there sometime... and I really wanna get down to the lake... like ASAP. I have 47 mosquito bites and a huge bruise from the seadoo.. but all in all it was an unreal weekend and I'm so glad I went.

Similarities:

- Bird Island
- The Dump lol
- The names of the lakes like Big Sandy vs. Big Sand etc.
- The scenery was almost identical of Little Sand or Big Sand
- The set up and take down of the cottage
- The birds sounded the same
- The games that were played
- The gravel road that lasts about 45-hour upon getting to the cottage.

I know theres more... and I'll end up thinking about them later.

Tomorrow is a big day... report cards and the Hepburnies are coming in to say their farewells. Awe man... I leave so soon... and that really makes me sad! =(
I'll write more tomorrow as my farewell!
Thanks for an unreal four days guys... it was so much fun!

P.S. I never knew tubing could end up being so painful... honostly hurts to type... and I cannot even think of bending my back lol. You know the driver did well hahaha Aaron!

Final Countdown.

Okay guys... it's official... I leave in 7 days to Minaki.

As much as I am thrilled. I'm actually deeply saddened. I'm getting teary-eyed as I think about it.

I realized something today. Friendships shouldn't be based on your typical things, it should be based on what distance can do to them, the tribulations that get thrown at you. There's a lot of people heading off to different schools, different continents even. It's almost a little odd to comprehend, that when I come back, two months later, things are going to change, more so then they usually do. Saskatoon is going to have an overpass, there’s always construction and store changes when I get back, but this time, I don't have the familiar faces to return to at Hardy, nor are there as many faces I'm going to see at the U of S. I know it's supposed to be a 'fresh start' a place to start anew... but sometimes, I don't like change. Sometimes it feels like once I start to finally become comfortable with the people I am with... something happens that it ends up doing a back flip and I lose that motivation to try again. It's going to be really emotional coming back for other reasons too. Yes, friends are going to be heading off... starting their lives, walking the steps of their future... I'm going to be going to University, which unto itself is a little intimidating. I may not return to the lake the following year unless I'm guaranteed a job at Paradise Cove (I'm not working there this year... I'm helping my Mom's friend Laura who has cancer, I'm basically going to be the housemaid so she can spend more times with her kids).

In short... I'm scared. When I come back from the lake... I'm going to get ricocheted into the adult world. I'M NOT READY! I can take responsibility... but I don't want to watch my childhood disappear to other parts of the world!

On the other hand... I'm excited, because a test like this simply amplifies the true friendships that were intended to last...

I'm excited to go to the lake...
But I'm going to miss every one of you immensely,
and pray that everyone has a safe and happy summertime before we go our separate ways.

"It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live." - Albus Dumbledore

I just have to keep remembering that, and that we are never that far apart. Earth's pretty small right?

For anyone who actually read this far down... I would love to get mail from you (not email… I'm talking SNAIL mail) down at the lake. It can get a bit secluded down there, and you cannot tell me getting mail isn't fun! If you'd like me to write you, or you would like to write me... lemme know, and I'll give you guys the PO Box address!!!!!

HAPPY SUMMER EVERYONE! WE'RE DONE!

I'll miss you all... and I pray that someday, to those people I won't see when I return, that fate crosses our paths once again.

Off to have a little mischeif... with some whipped cream... ;)
Get your head outta the gutters guys... its for a prank! =P
Nighty Night!

So summers just around the corner... and I got thinking after I re-read my yearbook signings... I'm going to miss this place. As much as I am thrilled to be out of here... don't get me wrong... a part of me is really sad to think I'm not going to walk those halls, saying hi to people I'm never going to see again. It's unreal... haha maybe I'll go through withdrawl =P But no... on a serious note... people are going to different places of the world. Florida, California, Australia, other parts of the U.S. It's unreal... just unreal.
For those who want to come down to the lake... apparently Kayla and Kaylee are road tripping it out to the lake... if you wanna join them... talk! P.S. You know how you were looking for other people? Haha I think I thought of one... no jokes! =D
Going to write the Foods final... hahaha yup that's right... FOODS. Sundae bar here I come! Talk about comfort food right lol... =S

Happy Fathers Day.

We had a doozy of a fight... I don't think I've ever been that upset for that long. We didn't talk for almost 36 hours. That's too long. Love you Dad... don't ever forget it!

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I wrote a letter to myself yesterday after our huge argument... I'll write what I wrote later on when I have more time. So I guess my plane leaves in 10 days. That's too soon. I'm not going to see a lot of these people... they're going places... doing something with their lives. Tim's going to California... Jordan's heading to Edmonton. I don't know if I even wanna go to the lake without my Saskatoon friends. I wish I could just bring them all down for like two weeks... then everything would be wonderous.
Sigh. Course that's only in a perfect world. I'm so excited, yet dreading heading down... God's hands... God's hands.

Wow...
So I guess highschool's almost over.
Had our last full day of classes... took a few pictures lol... wrote my first final, Bio, which actually went pretty well I think. Psychology is on Monday, Sundae bar for Foods is on Tuesday, and our take-home final is on Wednesday, er, due on Wednesday.
It's really wierd to think that the lake is already creeping up on me. It feels like I was just there! I can still picture everything, what it looked like when I sat in the boat from time to time... the sounds, even the smells! I guess this school year went by really fast... I didn't actually think it would. Odd.
I hope a bunch of you get to come out to visit me at the lake, go wakeboarding, have bonfires and generally have a blast. It would be sweet if people came out. Believe me... it can get a little boring sometimes! COME OUT FOR LIKE, TWO WEEKS! Sweetness! =D
Anyways, I'm going to relax today... we just endured a hell of a storm... tornadoes everywhere... it was utter chaos in Saskatchewan!! Went out with Darrick, Kalee, Kaylee and Shane yesterday. Good fun.
I'm going to go eat some breakfast!
Oh, and on a side note:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAPTAIN!!!
xxoo MISS YOU!!!!!!

Hehe... only the Captain knows who that is =P Or... my MSN name if you happen to see it all day today lol.

Free Fallin - Tom Petty

She's a good girl, loves her Mama
Loves Jesus and America too
She's a good girl, crazy 'bout Elvis
Loves horses and her boyfriend too

It's a long day living in Reseda
There's a freeway runnin' through the yard
And I'm a bad boy cause I don’t even miss her
I'm a bad boy for breakin' her heart

And I'm free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm free, free fallin'

All the vampires walkin' through the valley
Move west down ventura boulevard
And all the bad boys are standing in the shadows
All the good girls are home with broken hearts

And I'm free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm free, free fallin'
Free fallin', now I'm free fallin', now I'm
Free fallin', now I'm free fallin', now I'm

I wanna glide down over Mulholland
I wanna write her name in the sky
Gonna free fall out into nothin'
Gonna leave this world for a while

And I'm free, free fallin'
Yeah I'm free, free fallin'

Hey bloggers,
How did my weekend go you ask?
Well actually it went fairly well. Fairly being key here.
Friday I stayed home and chilled out. Saturday was a YES meeting... when prior Kayla and I tipped our hair pink. Pretty hot if you ask me lol. YES meeting was your typical YES meeting.. then it was GIRLS night! Eating junk food and whatnot with Janine Kayla and Kaylee and watching 'The Breakfast Club'. Gosh I love that movie. Today I did every possible household chore you could ever imagine... then went out for a little more then average supper. Definatly sweet. Tomorrows a field trip... pretty stoked for that.
My poetry book keeps filling up and filling up... now it's even starting to play over in my dreams. Shoot.
Later ya'll.

Well hey guys.
It's Friday night, I feel like crap (which means I'm going to bed soon... yup lol) and being the person I am I decided to pay a tribute to the most amazing TV show ever... which just happened to get cancelled... Joan Of Arcadia... which is whom you see on the layout, because she stars in it (she being Amber Tamblyn). So anyways. What's new with me? Nothing really. I hit a little bit of a low on Wednesday and I don't know why... but I can tell you I've been writting in my journal like no mans business about the stuff that's going through my head. The wierd thing is... it's only gone this far two times before... maybe third times the charm. Hah, ya right. So anyways, Wednesday was the last Blaze, and it was throughly enjoyable for the most part. Yesterday Kayla Lindsay Rohrke and I hung out because he was leaving to work in Dawsons creek for ten days. Your in my prayers buddy!! Other then laugh.. the weather has bit, it's been cold and rainy. I love rain yes... but this is starting to get monotonous!
I'm going to head to bed, so I hope you all had an enjoyable Friday night and I'll talk more another day, another time...

Who Do You Love - The Moffatts

Here we are
You tell me I'm the only one
Who makes you feel love again
There you go
I see you watching him
When you don't think I know
Should I let you go?

So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me?

Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time

Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart

Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?
Who do you love?

Turn around
Do you really think you could
You'll play me like a fool
For you
Then I realize
When you touch me it's like nothing I have known
Could I let you go

So who's it gonna be
Is it him or me?

Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time

Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart

Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?
Who do you love?
Who do you love?
Who do you need?
You're messing up my mind
Wastin' all my time

Who do you love?
What do you feel?
Stop playin with my heart
You're tearin me apart

Am I the one
who can make you fly up above
Is it me who can take you higher
than you're dreaming of
Now who do you love?
Who do you love?

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Hehe he should be replaced with she =P