Happy New Years everyone.

Perhaps if I play the game correctly, and play the game soon enough... maybe I'll get off to a good 2005... time for a little aggression on the field... no matter what the cost.

no matter what the cost

10 resolutions:

I. Keep my head up alone
II. Quit concerning myself over others.. i've learned it's not worth the time and stress
III. Become a little more selfish in public, less at home
IV. Buckle down with school. What social I had will be limited
V. No more pop. More water... and sprite
VI. Keep true to my beliefs (haven't had a problem with that.. so I must be doing something right)
VII. Not to cry over someone I care about because of their choices. (See II)
VIII. Be more considerate at home (See III)
IX. Grow my imagination again
X. Be myself

Simple? We'll see...
Anyways, best wishes to everyone, and prayer for those affected by that Tsunami. What is it? 125,000 people +? Prayer for them for sure. What a way to start a year. I may cynical right now, but I certainly can't complain knowing something like that.

God Bless, Let's play the first card.

LITTLE WING --> Jimi Hendrix

Well she's walking through the clouds
With a circus mind that's running round
Butterflies and zebras
And moonbeams and fairy tales
That's all she ever thinks about
Riding with the wind.

When I'm sad, she comes to me
With a thousand smiles, she gives to me free
It's alright she says it's alright
Take anything you want from me, anything
Anything.

Fly on little wing,
Yeah, little wing

Wow.... what an unreal morning. I definatly know now what God wants me to be.
Today I woke up at 8.00 am... and then by 10, my Dad, Mom and I were off to Ryerson. My elementary school. I got to see my kindergarten teacher, Mrs. Dufrat (formally Mrs. Smith) Mr. Scantleberry (he was really good looking when I was younger... wow 10 years hurt him lol) and most importantly, Mrs. Strukoff! I haven't seen her in about 5 years now... unreal how time flies! So I get there, my family says their hellos, and then Mrs. S invites me to stay with her class for a bit.. so naturally I did. I totally hung out with her grade twos.. got introduced with a chorus of 'Hi Jamie' from all the kiddies. But then.. get this. I got to go to gym class with Mr. S himself! I climbed the wall I was never allowed to climb, oh it was so fun! Then I helped Mrs. S take down decorations and talked about good times lol. Then I got to go to the library with em. I talked with them while they were there. It was honostly so fun. All the kinds wanted to come talk to me because they were like.. facinated with me :P too cute!! I definatly know thats what I want to do. Mrs. Strukoff was talking about how fun it is to teach the younger grades... because you have a chance to mold them in this already pressure cooked world. She told me about a grade 4 girl she had heard.. complaining about how fat she was. Grade 4... thats just the stupidist thing EVER! Anyways. So then I said my Cyas, because I had such good timing.. seeing as Mrs. S is retiring (for surely this time) at the end of the year... how sad! Honostly, best teacher ever ever! She also volunteered to write me a recommendation letter! WOOT! But I can't describe to you the kids. They were coming over going. Whats your name again? Where are you from? Are you excitied for Christmas. OH and get this. I totally got to go and hang in the staff room during recess! I had never been in there before! IT WAS SO COOL! Hahaha even talked to one of Brittney's old teachers... oh it confirmed what I want to be. I want to be one of those teachers that makes an impact on students... molds them into something magnificant! *sigh* But I should get going actually... Coffee with the parentals and the grandparentals lol.
Miss everyone so very very much!
Happy Holidays! (I'll write more after tonight... I think we're going out for supper???)

Oh My Goodness! Guess what!

First off... I would like to begin with my two favourite Christmas songs of all time!!!!

BELLS WILL BE RINGING --> The Eagles

O Bells will be ringing
this sad sad sad news
Oh what a Christmas
to have the blues
My baby's gone
I have no friends
To wish me greetings
once again
O Choirs will be singing
Oo Silent Night
Christmas carols by candle light
Please come home for Christmas
Please come home for Christmas
If not for Christmas by New Years night
Friends and relations
Send salutations
Sure as the stars shine up above
But this is Christmas
Yeah, it's Christmas my dear
It's the time of year to be with the one you love.
So won't you tell me
You'll never more roam
Christmas and the New Year
Will find you home
There`ll be no more sorrow
No grief and pain
And I'll be happy, happy, once again
There be no more sorrow
No grief and pain
It'll be a happy, Christmas, once again

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HAPPY CHRISTMAS --> John Lennon & Yoko Ono

So this is Christmas
And what have you done
Another year over
And a new one just begun
Ans so this is Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young

A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear
And so this is Christmas
For weak and for strong
For rich and the poor ones
The world is so wrong
And so happy Christmas
For black and for white
For yellow and red ones
Let's stop all the fight
A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear
And so this is Christmas
And what have we done
Another year over
And a new one just begun
Ans so this is Christmas
I hope you have fun
The near and the dear one
The old and the young
A very merry Christmas
And a happy New Year
Let's hope it's a good one
Without any fear
War is over over
If you want it
War is over
Now...

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I love those songs.... even though the first one is obviously kinda depressing!
So why am I so excited??? Well... get this! I get to go to school tomorrow! THATS RIGHT! I get to go and visit Mrs. Strukoff because shes teaching tomorrow... I'm so so so so pumped! I haven't seen her in about 5 years... and she did write me a YES letter! And on Sunday (before we leave on Monday) I get to go to church with Nana and Papa. I haven't been there since we moved! I'm super excited actually! WOOOT! =)
So I didn't do a lot today... got Kayla and Chelsie their Christmas presents... I couldn't find Liz one and I really did look hard... hmm I hope I can find something! Then we went and saw Nana and Papa... then had supper back here and then I put the tree together.. decorations.. the cool icicle tinsel stuff..... it looks great. And we stuck the presents under as well! Got nothing more to say... I'm really quite tired! I gotta get up early anyways... school starts at 8:50! hahaha. Nighty Night! Hope the soccer team did well tonight! Miss you all so very much!

Alright blog. I finally have a few moments to myself. (thank goodness!)
So we travelled to Winnipeg today... goodness gracious what a fast trip. We AVERAGED 120 kms an hour... meaning we made it here in about 7 hours... we usually make it in about 8.5 or 9. WOOT go Dad! There's definatly a blizzard outside... and thats not an exagheration (yup spelled it wrong.. I know) Roads are shut down... things are blowing away. Utter chaos I tell you!
So... okay. I'm going to do a lot of random writing... about some pretty random stuff... you ready for it?? Haha I sure am.

So I am out and out flattered by the fact that Tim said he got/made (i don't recall which or he said either of those words) a gift for Christmas. I mean frick I've only known him a few months.. if that. I also love (thats niether sarcasim or sincerity... its neutral) the fact that Tim and I.. (haha or as Kayla would say, Jim and Tamie) are a topic of conversation. I don't know what I'm going to do about this situation.. if I dare even call it a situation. Argh I don't know what to say about this. Something inside me has something to say... but my mouth or mind just cannot put it together. Is this good? Or is this bad? =( Help! I don't understand why some people (ya.. even my dad.. and he doesn't know the half of it) is bugging me about it. Why! It's just like anything anyone else would go through.. what makes it so different with me hey? And me personally? (This is gonna sound so... childish? if thats a good word choice) I don't know how to react to this (heres the killer line.. right here:) I've never had to deal with this before (all you who are reading.. 10 bucks says you said awe).. and truthfully I don't know what to do.. or what to expect! Eek!. I believe the sentance as we had discussed (as in Kayla and Liz..) I think it's still a ?! haha but I'm not so sure =P

Anyways... onto other things... *ahem* Winnipeg is super cold... (-32 right now) and its a blizzard as i said. Grandma looks good and so does Bailey the wonderdog. I talked with Sean and hes gonna arrange for all of us to do something on Wednesday night... I hope and pray that he remembers the scene I'm not a fan of... I really really hope so otherwise I'm just going to back out once again. I also talked with Brittney! YAY! We're going to try and get over to see them while we're here. Oh I love being back here but I have nothing to do... no one to hang out with. Ya.. it's Christmas, but what good is Christmas without those you love. Sometimes family can't do it you know?

Speaking of which.. I guess my Dad is spending Christmas Eve at Nana and Papas, and is opening presents with them and whatnot before coming over to Grandmas. I'm so upset at this. This is the 6th year we haven't had a family Christmas.. but even then Dad was in the same house. Now we're going to have to wait for him to start Christmas? What the frick is up with that? Honostly I'm really really pissed off with that. Beyond words!

Anyways I should probably go do something constructive... seeing as I haven't for the past 2 hours.... maybe I'll organize my CD's or something. Frick I'm bored... and I miss you all so very much!

And this is for Kayla... A W E ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !

Happy Holidays! Christmas Countdown = 6 days! =)

So tonight was really really fun. Darrick Liz Tim and I all travelled up to North Battleford to watch Kayla's game. The ride there was unreal and such lol good times.
One problem though... I don't know what the heck is bothering Darrick... and I'm actually kinda worried about him. He said he never thought we were on 'speaking speaking... spill our hearts' terms.. which kinda hurt I'm not gonna lie. I hope he feels better... and I hope he feels he can talk to me more... ouch.
Holy Grail tomorrow with Lizzard! WOOOT! And then the Christmas concert then... PACKING THEN LEAVING FOR THE PEG!
Well frick I still feel really bad....

What a question?
Like... who asks that! Honostly! I think I know what's going on here... but I can't be too sure...
It's not like I'm gonna tell him.. because heck I don't even know myself! Anyways, fun night last night. Went to Tim's soccer game with Darrick.
Tonight is the roadtrip out to North Battleford with Darrick and Liz. Tim may or may not come... but we'll see. Hope he does... but if he doesn't that's alright too!
Good luck tonight Kayz! We'll be cheering for ya!
Leave in two days for Winnipeg. WOOT!
Later Days!

Wednesday! Hump day! BLAZE DAY! So fun. We had drum wars, and Jordan got 2nd, and obviously Josh won... he was fricken unreal! Haha definatly congratulated him afterwards! HAHA Awe Curtis is so stoked that Kayla and I are going to really start speaking to him in school... hes like 'My popularity is gonna go through the roof!' haha awe!
Still working on the portfolio... good lord won't it end!
I'm so excited for Friday. Darrick, Liz, Tim and I are so taking a roadtrip up to North Battleford to watch one of Kaylas games..... ROADTRIP! WOOT WOOT!
Hopefully it pulls through.
Awe Chelsie got me some paints and some brushes and a poster! What a sweetie! I can't wait to get the second half of her gift... she's gonna love it!
I should get back to work... I'm most likely going to come home and sleep tomorrow... holy mother fricker!
Oh ya... Sean? Nice toga buddy... very hot! LMAO! And congrats on your lisence Chelsea... I'll get mine soon (ha soon as in.. probably never [or until i leave the house!])
Later Days!

Well blog, I apologize for not writing in a while. You see December is a crutial time of year when all the teachers congragate and decide to have everything due within a period of two weeks. I've had so much homework lately I think I'm going to pass out. Tomorrow I have a Math test, A World Religions quiz, Thursday I have my Writing Portfolio due (YIKES) and then Friday my comic is due. All the while I'm running on no sleep and no Jamie time. Thats right blog.... I've lacked on my Jamie time! I haven't gone stargazing (During the week mind you Kayla haha) by myself for almost a month. A MONTH! Thats udderly insanity! I'm going insane! Okay. Let's start by saying December has become a very interesting month. Things with 'The Group' (aka Janine Aaron and Amanda) are going much better, things were solved at Blaze on the 1st of December. Chelsie Martina and Jason S. have... something going? (Awe... beyond cute if you ask me) Janine had her birthday... yup 17! Now we're all 17! woot! Then we had formal, which I did not attend because my family and I thought we were leaving for Winnipeg, and plus I had no one to go with! Soccer is going amazing... we're currantly undefeated! Yes! Go US! Okay, So I'm going to go over the last few days, because it's truthfully all I remember! Monday I worked my ass off with homework and whatnot. Tuesday was my semi day off. After school I did homework, then Darrick, Tim and Josh (Tim's little 12 year old brother) came over and we went to a movie. Ladder 49 with Greg, Tanner, Lindsay Petra... and I believe that's it. It was a really good movie from what I saw, and I got to curl up in Tims coat! hehe! Then we left early from the movie so I could go play my game against the brutal team with the mean girl that likes to push... frick her eh!!! Our goalie dislocated her shoulder before halftime, and guess what... she continued playing the second half! INSANITY! Then Kayla Darrick Tim Josh and I went to coffee at Tim Hortons. Quite an enjoyable time. Oh and I got 98% on my World Religions calendar! Woot! So I leave for Winnipeg on Sunday (yay.. family stress time!) So I have to get SO much work done! Holy mother! Tomorrow is Blaze too. Hopefully I can get everything done by then!

So you may be wondering why I put this layout... well you see, the other day I was watching Hook (Yup.. Peter Pan for you simpltons) and well I started crying because I miss those days of imagination. I remember a long time ago when my dreams consisted of unicorns and flying and magic. I remember when I believed strongly in Santa and such. I really do miss those days sometimes... reminds me of when things were so much simpler. I'm going to say it, so don't hold it against me....

I don't want to grow up.

Period. End of story. I should get back to work now... I'm still working on my creative writing folder... holy frick taking the longest time EVER!!!
Anyways, Later days! <3