Alrighty boys and girls. Here I am, in Winnipeg, The 'Peg, Winterpeg. The flight went well, except it was severly rough and my Mom was honostly grabbing ahold of my hand the entire time. I saw Melissa Lindenbach at the airport with her sister because they were going to Orlando (lucky) and I went shopping after my Grandma picked us up at the airport and some guy asked for my number, it was quite funny actually. Anyways, thats how the day has gone, and I'm sitting here, listening to Aarons CD and Something Corporate and I'm beginning to get sad. As corny as that sounds for me, I actually am beginning to miss T3-A time. Sometimes you know, I don't like hanging out with all of them but you know, it's amazing how attached you can get to a certain group of people, and I had forgotten that from the lake. I mean frick I was SO attached to them a week before I left, and for a few months after. My life was theirs, and their lives were mine. We were like one and the same. I miss them so much and I know that things aren't going to be the same. I just cannot forget about my Toon Town friends.


Kayz --> Keep your head up sweetie, things will work out. remember to just smile, thats what makes the world go round alright? I promise!


9er --> Take care of Kayz while I'm gone, your now the shoulder to cry on, and the ear for listening! I'm counting on you!


Aaron --> You are the man... take care of the women!!! obviously you know what to do, I don't have to worry about that.


Chad --> Don't quit soccer, thats stupid. Things will be okay and I know that you know they will. Your strong, you'll make it through


Tanys --> Your comic was amazing alright, it made me laugh so hard that people stared. You are so my hero okay!!!!


Kaylee --> I'm so sorry I forgot to call... good luck in soccer and hope your foots better!


Darrick --> Forgot to call you too, sorry buddy!!!! Have a good summer!!!!


Lindsay --> Too bad I didn't get to see you before I left, but oh well, have a good summer and we'll do something when I get back!


Everyone Else --> HAVE AN AMAZING SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Okay so back to reality. My moms losing her hearing or something because her heads so plugged and so are her ears. She goes around saying what? I didn't hear you! So entertaining lemme tell you!. My grandmas being bossy but it'll be okay once we get down to the lake tomorrow. I can't wait for tomorrow night... sitting on highcliffe, watching the northern lights, and the stars glowing so brightly against the sky... Oh wow what a perfect beginning to an amazing summer.
Paradise I'm here, waiting for you to come!
Much Love,
Jamie xxoo


P.S. Aaron you have to tell me what numbers 4 and 6 are... those are my favourite songs!!!!!


P.P.S. If anyone wants to write me directly to the lake while I'm gone... here is the EXACT address... make sure it says exactly this:


Miss Jamie Shail
c/o Mrs. E. Hodgson
Box 138
Minaki, Ontario
P0X 1J0


LOVE & MISS YOU ALL!!!! HAVE A GOOD SUMMER!!!!

Alright gang, times winding down, and I leave in two days. This time I think I'm actually gonna be sad, but I have to remember to


GET PEOPLES ADDRESSES!


Because then I can write post cards and everything and it'll be good. I pray to God that things are gonna be marginally the same, obviously they aren't, but truthfully I'm worried about Seans 'Big Sand Beach Bash'. It's not the fact that all the teens from Minaki are gonna go, it's the factor that him and Sarah wanna put up posters in K-Town, and all the drunken natives are gonna come and I just have a bad feeling about this. As much as I love a good time, especially up there... something just doesn't feel right... Oh well. Sean and I have stuff planned for the annual BBQ, we're gonna go to K-Town and buy SOOO many fireworks n such to launch off of Highcliff at some point. Sean also said he's jumping off the cliff this year, said I should go with him and I had a good laugh. As much as I love a thrill, thats just.. foolish. One day I plan on it, but not yet, haha I wanna graduate next year thanks! Speaking of which, Ya, I failed Physics, but only but a tiny bit... what a shitty school year hey... oh well.. I promised myself I was gonna work my ass off for Grade 12, because thats the one that REALLY matters. Heres the schedual now, seeing as I got it changed around:


Creative Writing - Arndt
English B30 Enr - Arndt
Math A30 - Davis (YAY!)
Phys Ed 30 - Mcphee
Visual Art 30 - Guttormson
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Bio 30 - Louko
Phychology 20 - Jensen
Food 30 - Pancyr
English A30 / History 30 - Heit & Whelan



So all in all it's gonna be an UNREAL year, and then I'm done. We're done. No more school, no nothing. I think its finally starting to hit me how fast a year can actually go by. I mean I still remember the summer like it was yesterday, and it seems not so long ago Grade 8 Grad. But it's been 4 years since that, and now, we're done. We go off into the working world. Holy, I'm scared. I gotta buckle down and study like a mother if I wanna get into the Arts & Science division of the U of S. Scary. HOLY does Aarons lake look like mine! It's wierd! The trees and everything too! As much as I wanna stay here with T-3, A and Chad, I wanna go to the lake again, I would die there if I could, get married there. It still sucks because no one REALLY understands how important, special and truely wonderful the lake really is in general and to me. Maybe someday they all will, maybe for aftergrad I'll get them all out. I was thinking about 'romantic songs' last night, don't know why, and I've come to the conclusion on the following songs:


Babe - Styx
Baby Come Back - Player
Baby I Love Your Way - Peter Frampton
Maybe I'm Amazed - Paul Mcartney
I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing - Aerosmith


Those songs are by far, the most romantic songs ever in my eyes.
I had to wake up at 7:00 to go get my timetable changed, and it's only 11:30 so so many people are still asleep and I'm dieing of bordom. As wrong as I think it is, my mom suggested I download the CD's I want so I can take em to the lake. The WHOLE CD, but I always feel guilty doing that, and I'd be doing it for 5, thats right, 5 CDs. (because I'm gonna die of country music and I won't let that happen) The Rasmus, Something Corporate, Story Of The Year, and 2 Sugarcult CD's. I'm gonna go download them now so I'll write more probably tonight when things actually happen.
Much Love:
Jamie

Holy mother, I just want to die right now. I failed Math A30, because Mrs. Cutts wouldn't move my mark up any higher, even though she claims its a 43, when it should be a 46, which would incline her to move my mark up to a 50%. Thats bullshit man, and I hated having to say that to my parents, It eats at my heart seeing them upset, and I can't stand doing this anymore. Youd think I would have learned or something. And I'm so scared for physics, SOOO scared to get a phone call. I don't know what I'm going to do. My life is in honost shambles right now, and I just want to go away and never come back. Why can't it be Friday or Saturday so I can go to the lake and just stay there till the end of my days. It's been said I'm a dissapointment, so I mean why stay in other peoples ways. I can't even pass a fucking math class. ** Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away, and now it seems they're here to stay, oh I believe, in yesterday. ** I can't wait to go to the lake, and have my privacy, the places where I can hide and write, just, be myself again. I can't be myself around my parents, and I just realized that, I act how THEY want me to act, I am what they want me to be, but I'm not going to say anything. However I know they're handling this well, but still I'm a mess, and I mean what IF physics calls... It would break their hearts and I don't want that to happen... ever. They mean the world to me and I've been so lucky to have parents as nice as they can be, so I mean when I see them hurt, I just want to curl up in a ball and die. Honostly die. I just have to TRY and keep my head up, hope and pray that things will be okay again. Chad told me things will get better, and I once believed that, like the foolish person I am, listening to my heart. I was wrong, things don't get better, you only get used to them so that they seem alright.

Well, today was a good day. Life is good, thats all I really have to say. Janine and Aaron might be 'officially' going out soon, Aaron even asked if I were okay with it, which I appreciated and I answered with all my best intentions. Things with Kayla and Chad are going amazing, I knew my heart wasn't wrong. The only thing holding him back is Ireland, and you know, maybe things will really go their way. I sure hope so, they seem so right together. Awe. Things are looking up folks, and I leave in 12 days. Yup, I'm sad because I wanna stay here with my friends... Oh well, another memorable summer is on the way and I cannot wait!
Until then, keep your head up!
Jamie xxoo

Good day, whatever it was colour day and I went out with Aaron and Janine. Pretty fun for the most part, whatever. The only thing I have to say today, is simply this. Kayla, you have to get control of your emotions sweetie otherwise your gonna scare him off or something, and you're just gonna end up getting hurt. See, this is how people around you see it. You're stressing over nothing. You're miserable in a scenario where others would be gleaming with joy. You gotta get your act together Kayla because I don't wanna see you get hurt, and I've been praying for you to keep your head up and your head clear throughout this entire thing, but it seems a little fog has simply set it... hopefully another wind will blow it away again...

Jamie

Alright. Man, haven't written in a while. Well, although family life was going absolutely to the dogs, we finally had a talk about it and everything is alright again! Horray! My week has been unreal so far. Chad and Kayla are doing good as friends, Aaron and Janine, whatever, I'm not part of that anymore, so I don't even have to worry... and my marks are getting there! 46 in physics and 48 in math! that means I need a 53% on the math final and a 57% on the physics final to pass! HORRAY! Tanys is helping me out tons and it's gonna be awesome. HOLY I leave in 16 days to Winnipeg. Bye bye Toon Town, hello amazing summer in Minaki! Sean and Chelsea and Allie will all be down, it's gonna be UNREAL I tell you! I can't wait for it. Except I think this is gonna be kinda sad leaving Saskatoon.. for once in my life. Hanging out with Kayla Janine Aaron and Chad has been such a blast... but I just gotta keep my head up and remind myself that I mean, shit, I'm going to Minaki, and Kayla MAY end up coming in August, which could be the best time of her life, honostly if she came, I'm gonna make it so that she never wants to leave! AHHHHH I can't wait. So she can meet everyone it's gonna be unreal. I had a shift yesterday at the U of S Vet Clinic because someone requested me in because someone wasn't going to be there, so that was pretty fun, cept I missed the second last Blaze which kinda ticked me off, but as long as I get to go to the last one I'll be good. Maybe then I can talk to Nathan or something, he's been really avoiding me lately... and I kinda am hurt/worried. We used to have amazing talks, through YES and afterwards, but after he broke up with Danee or whoever, he hasn't said a word to me, and it sucks! Ah well, he'll come around I hope, especially before I leave. Man I'm gonna be cut off from civilization for 2 months... because the computers are gone from the Lodge! EEEEK! better save my money so I can buy comp time in Kenora! Got a game tonight, and it's raining so it's going to be unreal. HOLY at the last game some girl fricken raised a fist to me and it scared the shit outta me, cept I was gonna hit her back! ARGH she was like get outta my fucking way and such... GRRRR stupid stuck up people on soccer teams.
Anywho I'm out, have a gooder!
Jamie
P.S. I'm stopping myself from hitting anyone anymore, and I'm gonna control my temper over petty things.. even though a few people (namely Chad, Aeden and Aaron) don't think I can do it, ha will I proove em wrong!

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We won our soccer game, like.. 12-1. It was hilarious