Wednesday, 27 June 2007
I know I no longer consider you a best friend... when you are the person I most desperately want to talk to... especially in light of recent events...
But I'm terrified that you're not going to care... or make me feel bad about interrupting your sleep.
All I wanted was compassion... and you couldn't even give me that.
Just so everyone knows...
Mom's sick. Mom is... really sick. To the point of having to have some very 'real' talks with my Dad and the doctors...
Fight or let her go...
Fuck it's not fair. It's just so... unfair.
And what's worse is I want to cry to you... but I can't.
Tuesday, 12 June 2007
"Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,
I was so alone.
You, you need to listen.
I'm startin' to trip,
I'm losin' my grip,
And I'm in this thing alone..."
You used to give me that feeling , that no matter what happened... everything was going to turn out for the better...
Like I could survive anything the world threw at me.
But I've come to terms now... I never needed you to give me that feeling, it was a matter of coming to terms with myself that I'm a strong person and I can handle this on my own.
Even though aspects in my life are slowly becoming more and more difficult and heart wrenching, other situations present themselves that gives me just that little glimmer of hope that allows me to keep going.