I love movies! I just decided that! Definatly went out and bought 'A Cinderella Story' [don't get it yet though =( ] because well.. that to me.. is the epitamy of what a good movie should be. Wanna know why? Well then dearies I'll tell you. Life in this world is just so darn cynical it's sickening. It's all based on the look and the product... never the process. In the movie 'A Cinderella Story', it gives people who aren't so lucky in love, hope, because surprise surprise, love can be so simple... yet so many people make it extremely complicated. I can tell you when I find my knight in shining armour, I won't fool around with the choices or the outcome. Live love by the moment, by the minute, never looking ahead. Looking ahead just leads to downfall and misery right? Be happy with the time and emotions you share with the person at the time.. within that minute! Prince Charming in my books? Is the person that makes me happy at the moment. A Cinderella Story certainly emphasizes something important.... That Once Upon A Time, Can Happen Anytime! It's true! Love finds you, you don't find it.. you cannot make it... but you can build it. Simple as that people. No one is going to get the fairytale, except in their wonderful 3 AM dreams, but once your Prince rides up on a white horse... or even a brown horse... your not going to care about the perfections, but the flaws that make you the happiest person in the world. I cannot wait for the day that I fall in love, because remember from the blog before... I believe in Atlantis... and I will forever believe that the Prince that is intended for you, shouldn't care what you look like... what you own or what you desire... but for who you are, and what you dream of. He may not be the best looking, the smartest or the richest, we may end up living in a trailer in the middle of nowhere with a cockroach problem... but as long as you can honostly say your deleriously happy... is that not fairytale enough? I certainly would say so...

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Suds In The Bucket - Sara Evans

She was in the backyard they say it was a little past nine
When her prince pulled up, a white pickup truck
Her folks should of seen it comin' it was only just a matter of time
Plenty old enough, and you can't stop love
She stuck a note on the screen door "sorry but I got to go"
That was all she wrote, her mamma's heart was broke
That was all she wrote, so the story goes

Now her daddy's in the kitchen starin' out the window, scratchin' and a rackin' his brains
How could 18 years just up and walk away?
Our little pony-tailed girl grown up to be a woman
Now shes gone in the blink of an eye
She left the suds in the bucket and the clothes hangin' out on the line

Now don't you wonder what the preacher's gonna preach about sunday mornin' nothing quite like this has happened here before
Well he must have been a looker, smooth talkin' son of gun
For such a grounded girl to just up and run
Course you can't fence time, and you can't stop love

Now all the biddies in the beauty shop gossip goin' non stop sippin on pink lemonade
How could 18 years just up and walk away?
Our little pony-tailed girl grown up to be a woman
Now shes gone in the blink of an eye
She left the suds in the bucket and the clothes hangin' out on the line

She's got her pretty little bare feet hangin' out the window and they're headed up to Vegas tonight
How could 18 years just up and walk away
Our little pony tailed girl growed up to be a woman
Now she's gone in the blink of an eye
She left the suds in the bucket and the clothes hangin' out on the line
She left the suds in the bucket and the clothes hangin' out on the line

She was in the backyard they say it was a little past nine
When her prince pulled up, a white pick up truck
Plenty old enough, and you can't stop love
No you can't fence time, and you can't stop love...

New layout.. like it? like it? I MADE IT! DAMN RIGHTS! =D
Anyways gotta get ready.. heading out with Kaylee then we're out with Byron. AHHH I don't like rushing!

Pure Imagination - Willy Wonka

Hold your breath
Make a wish
Count to three

Come with me
And you'll be
In a world of
Pure imagination
Take a look
And you'll see
Into your imagination

We'll begin
With a spin
Traveling in
The world of my creation
What we'll see
Will defy
Explanation

If you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Wanta change the world?
There's nothing
To it

There is no
Life I know
To compare with
Pure imagination
Living there
You'll be free
If you truly wish to be

If you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Wanta change the world?
There's nothing
To it

There is no
Life I know
To compare with
Pure imagination
Living there
You'll be free
If you truly
Wish to be...

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What a great movie... that song reminds me of my childhood... when things were just so much simpler... and easier... with not a care in the world...

Okay, here's my weekend in a nutshell;
Friday I went out to Kaylee's birthday supper at Kelsey's with a ton of people but I only stayed for a little bit because Nathan came and picked me up and we went to The Cove (the games place in the U of S) and played some pool! Then he showed me some trick shots.. it was really sweet actually. Then we took off, and parked over by the traintracks and talked. We talked about hijacking trains, telephone poles and other unique stuff. Oh... and of course the topic of boyfriends came up too. Awkward lol!
Then.. on Saturday, woke up at like... 7:00 ish... got ready, went out for breakfast with Kaylee and her family.. *cuz it was her BIRTHDAY! 18!* then headed to Hepburn, hung there for a little while, came back to Kaylee's and watched Armegeddon, I cried. Went to supper with Kaylee, Darrick, Kaylee's parents and her Grandma. It was definatly fun. Then.. I worked on my Neil Young bio for the rest of the night. Nathan called at like.. 11:45 and I didn't answer cuz the parents were asleep and well.. I would have woken them up. So I wrote him and asked him why he'd messaged me. He left me a really sweet comment on the phone that I read when I woke up this morning. Awe. Then I went to church with Tanys and Kayla.. then went to A&W with Krick and Lindsay, then came back and watched 'Mean Girls'. Then.. I worked more on the essay, talked to Nathan before he went to work and that's where I'm sitting as off right now!
Better get back to the essay to finish it!
Later Days*
~God Bless
(P.S. This is a great song... I believe in Atlantis! =D)

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Trying To Find Atlantis -- Jamie O'Neal

I hear he's out there somewhere
Been looking for him everywhere
From Rosweld to Timbuctoo I thought I found him once at a jiffy lube
But it turned into a dead end so I got my oil changed and I tried again
He was a major in archeology
I was digging on him but he wasn't on me
A girl trying to find herself the perfect man is like trying to find Atlantis

It's a mystery like the deep blue sea
You can take it you can leave it but I still believe
So I won't give up and I won't give in
I know I'm gonna find him I just don't know when
A girl trying to find herself the perfect man is like trying to find Atlantis

I met a mystic down in Memphis we stood at the foot of the pyramid
He had me looking east - He had me looking west
Then he showed me a map and said I wish you the best
There was Elvis not the real one
When he told me good bye he called me hun
Just another shot in the dark like Eldorado or Noah's ark
A girl trying to find herself the perfect man is like trying to find Atlantis

It's a mystery like the deep blue sea
You can take it you can leave it but I still believe
So I won't give up and I won't give in
I know I'm gonna find him I just don't know when
A girl trying to find herself the perfect man is like trying to find Atlantis

When I Go Down -- Relient K

I'll tell you flat out
It hurts so much to think of this
So from my thoughts I will exclude
This very thing that
I hate more than everything is
The way I'm powerless
To dictate my own moods

I've thrown away
So many things that could've been much more
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

When I go down
I go down hard
And I take everything I've learned
And teach myself some disregard
When I go down
It hurts to hit the bottom
And of the things that got me there
I think, if only I had fought them

If and when I can
Clear myself of this clouded mind
I'll watch myself settle down
Into a place where
Peace can search me out and find
That I'm so ready to be found

I've thrown away
The hope I had in friendships
I've thrown away
So many things that could have been much more
I've thrown away
The secret to find an end to this
And I just pray
My problems go away if they're ignored
But that's not the way it works
No that's not the way it works

Any control I thought I had just slips right through my hands
While my ever-present conscience shakes its head and reprimands me
Reprimands me
Then and there
I confess
I'll blame all this on my selfishness
Yet you love me
And that consumes me
And I'll stand up again
And do so willingly

You give me hope, and hope it gives me life
You touch my heavy heart, and when you do you make it light
As I exhale I hear your voice
And I answer you, though I heardly make a noise
And from my lips the words I choose to say
Seem pathetic, but it's fallen man's praise
Because I love you
Oh God, I love you
And life is now worth living
If only because of you
And when they say I'm dead and gone
It won't be further from the truth

When I go down
I life my eyes up to you
I won't look very far
Cause you'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To life me up again...

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What a great song eh... I love it to pieces. This weekend cometh... oh gosh I'm going to be so stressed... but that's okay.. because once Wednesday passes.... everything is right with the world! =)
Later Days*
~God Bless

Hey gang...
What is up?
Well... I can't say much on my part... I'm just sitting here... sobbing my face off.
Oh don't get me wrong lol everything in life is going amazing! I'm sobbing because I'm a sucker... a sucker for sappy summer songs. (S's eh)
Colourful by SteelDragon and We All Die Young by SteelDragon reminds me of the drive home from the lake.. that fateful 2003 year. Wow... does that ever not seem that long ago.... it seems like I just got home. Actually... what started triggering these memories.. was when Nathan and I went to the observatory and we looked at the stars... it reminded me so much of highcliffe... of course minues the 14,000 dollar telescope. *sigh* It's going to be a rough summer... I can tell you that... I'm actually terrified to leave... I don't want to deal with them like that... why can't they just grow up and see past the foolish lifestyle that gets them nowhere.

Anyways... yesterday was Blaze. AND GUESS WHO WAS THERE! (besides Byron of course =P) Lindsay fricking Rhorke!!! I MISSED THAT KID! Hehe I couldn't stop hugging him! Nathan also was there.. a lot of people were there. Then.. after a wonderful shindig at the church... we (Kaylee, Allyce, Byron, Richard (Byrons friend) and others who decided to show up (Tim, three of his friends, Phil, Sol and a few others) went to Fuddruckers.... I got a ride with Nathan because he wanted to drive me? Speaking of which.. I don't know what to do about that situation. I mean.. frick I had the hugest crush on him during YES... I mean really... I really really did. And now... its simply the same... which scares me sorta, because once again I don't know what to do in situations like these. I know this will work out the way they're meant to but... we all know how anxiety gets the best of me right.

So anyways... on to today. Had a 3rd spare because we made bread yesterday. It was a blah day.. blah blah blah. Saw Evan McCormick at Tim Hortons today.. and he wants to go bowling tonight... and so far Kayla and Liz might come... Allyce is almost surely coming... Kaylee I will call when she gets off work and find out if she'll come... and ya.. that's about it!

I'll let you know how the evening progresses.

Oh and here's what the weekend looks like... Friday.. family thing possibly. Saturday.. Hepburn? Not sure.. we'll see. Supper with Kaylee and Kaylee's family for Kaylee's birthday. Sunday, church and going out with Lindsay and Krick (I love those two lol) and a biography thats due on Monday... big bio thing due Wednesday and a big foods thing also due Wed. STRESS MUCH EH??? And on Tuesday, I'm going to make a lovely jaunt over to the airport to see Nathan off as he heads to Costa Rica... awe... he asked me to come... *tee hee*

So anyways.. time for supper!
Later Days*
~God Bless

Lasting Impression -- The Starting Line

I'll wait til the clock strikes a nerve to spend some time with
you
I can't stand to depend on the shadow I cast alone when we
should
For the sake of making a statement
Let's make our presence known
Let's show them what were made of
We'll show up in our outfits we planned ahead
To meet the qualifications for a special occasion
Today is your day today is our day
Making up for lost time
Making a scene oh yeah

You've made a lasting impression
And if it doesn't feel right
Then I just can't go wrong
I've been sleeping with the lights on
So if I wake in the night
Your picture is clearly in sight

So let's meet at the mouth for a kiss
That's been so long overdue
No thanks to the two thousands of miles
And the touring we always do
(It makes me miss you more)

You've made a lasting impression
And if it doesn't feel right
Then I just can't go wrong
I've been sleeping with the lights on
So if I wake in the night
Your picture is clearly in sight

I could explode
Cuz you just never, you never know
It would suit the moment perfectly

You've made a lasting impression
And if it doesn't feel right
Then I just can't go wrong
I've been sleeping with the lights on
So if I wake in the night
You've made a lasting impression
And if it doesn't feel right
Then I just can't go wrong
I've been sleeping with the lights on
So if I wake in the night
Your picture is clearly in sight

We can't go wrong...
We can't go wrong...

A deep... emotional musing from my mind.

Well blog... I don't know what to say right now. I've been looking over the past, re-thinking history and I've come to numerous, emotional conclusions. First of all... over the past year... (our anniversary is almost here! Yay one year!) You've held my thoughts, my sadness, my joys. Yet, I find a similarity to all of them... and there are two things in my life I must do, in order to move on.
I've come to a conclusion what the definition of friend is. It's actually surprising how few people know what's going around in this complicated maze I call my mind... and there are a few who seem to lose there way. No longer are my joys shared joys, nor my sorrows. There's been ups and downs, and beneath it all, a common, underlying pain that has dwelled with me for so very long. I would never possibly write something like that on here, but I really do understand it now. I've also concluded I don't need many solid friends, only one, maybe two, the rest are merely aquaintences, kept at arms length. I've tried to make those friendships last for too long, and gotton too shattered in the process. I've finally found out the person I am, and what I need to do for me and for me alone. I've stepped up, moved on, and walked the unused trail, rather then the bustling street. This all may seem almost sad to some who read this, but please, don't feel that this is merely a sympathy note... for it is far from it. It's a farewell note. Out with the old, bewildered Jamie, in with the new, consequential Jamie. I've been praying about this for a long time now, and finally God so willingly answered my prayers, and for that, he knows I'm thankful. Speaking of God... I also did a lot of reflecting about religion. There's nothing I can do for those that fool themselves anymore... I can only relish myself in God and he will take me where he wants me to be... as I said, he finally cleared my eyes and his hand helped me out of the seat of the ride. Now, he and I shall walk hand in hand to my future where I will no longer dwell on sadness, but reap the good fortunes and blessings that I have recieved... knowing tomorrow is a brand new day thus means living it to the fullest at every possible oppertunity. I want people to know me for me, not for who I'm associated with, who my friends are, or what I plan to do with my life. Only for me, and they will be good. Whomever cares to march with me down the unearthed trail of solitude and happiness can walk behind me, but I will walk alone with God. Wish me luck everyone, and I'm sorry to those who choose the other path, perhaps one day we will meet up, so until then, good morning, good afternoon, good evening and goodnight.
Later Days*
~God Bless Always

FALL TO PIECES -- Avril Lavigne

I looked away, then I looked back at you.
You tried to say, things that you can't undo.
If i had my way, I'd never get over you.
Today's the day, I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces, I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation, I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it, cuz' I'm in love with you.

You're the only one, I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone, you bring me back again.

Back under the stars,
Back into your arms

And I don't wanna fall to pieces, I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation, I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it, cuz' I'm in love with you.

Wanna know who you are.
Wanna know where to start.
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel.
Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything... everything.

I don't wanna fall to pieces, I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation, I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't wanna fall to pieces, I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation, I just wanna cry in front of you.
And I don't wanna talk about it, cuz' I'm in love with you...I'm in love with you, Cuz I'm in love with you..I'm in love with you....I'm in love with you...

Alright, so re-cap of the night.. last night...

So we figure out the plans, yadda yadda yadda... he comes to the house to pick me up... lol I have to tell him he's supposed to come in the house... oh wow I felt super bad... poor kid.
Anywho so we head off to battle of the bands, but theres like.. no one there... so hahaha we take off and are like... frick what should we do. So.. he says he's hungery, so we stop at the house, I give him the tour, I get the debit and hahaha I take him out for supper at Moxies. I got a fortune cookie that said 'You would make a good lawyer' hahaha darn rights.
Then we drove around a bit more, then around the campus talking about anything and everything. Then, we went to look at the synchatron. BIGGEST pieces of equipment I've ever seen! It's huge!!!! Then... certainly the highlite of my night... Nathan took me to the observatory. We got to look through the telescope and I saw a star in the big dipper, another that was in Orions sword.. and the best of em all.. Saturn... rings and all... it was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen. Then we went to Louis' and watched two bands.. the third was french and hilarious lol tribal noises.. hahaha.
But all in all... it was a great night... I had a blast.

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Today, went to church, saw Danae!!!!!!! and Krick!!!!!! went for coffee with Tanys and Adriene (spelling I know) then worked like a maniac... went for coffee with Kaylee... almost got hit by a tractor!!! GOOD TIMES.. my ribs hurt too.
Later Days!*
~God Bless

Last Night...
Hehehe...

Oh HAIL no! lmao I made a funny!

Hey blog,
Wow... what a fun night! Darrick came in at about 5:30pm yesterday and we chilled around here, drove to visit Kaylee, went to Taco Time to visit Chelsie and eat food, went to Kaylee's after she got off work... GOT MY JERSEY! WOOT!, and then came back here to watch Enemy of the State. What a great movie!!!
Then after Darrick departed Kaylee and I had some wonderful talks and then I came home and slept hahaha.
Today... oh gosh I don't know what to say. I'm supposed to call Nathan so we can go out for coffee, and then I'm heading out with him to Battle Of The Bands. So it should be fun... If I can remember to talk to him...

I'm going to go make some breakfast so I'll write more later on the events of the day as they pass by.
Later Days*
~God Bless

So guess what...

We may not have a grad if the voting passes through the teachers strike...

WHAT?! I know... scary hey...

Parent/Teacher interviews went well... apparently I have spunk/a spark about me... okay...

Hanging with Darrick and Kaylee tonight... sweeetness!

Well...
Later Days!*
~God Bless

Went shopping yesterday with Jill... my cousin... oh gosh did we find my dress and everything... she's starting the making process as soon as she can. EEK! =) I'm super happy! Actually... its not the exact colour I wanted... they did have it.. but after I saw it in a large area... it was just too dark... would have looked funny. So now its kinda a lighter colour... with a TINY hint of teal. Its so nice! IM SO EXCITED!!!!
Off to the Mendal...
Later Days*
~God Bless

I was browsing through pictures deciding what to paint next... and I stumbled across this picture:



Is that not.. just too darn cute! I thought so. Anyways I have to get up early tomorrow anyways to visit the Mendal about all this art stuff... deary me.
Later Days*
~God Bless!

Life is great.
Life is good.
I feel better.
School is good.
I love things!
I couldn't be doing better... March is going to be a good month!
Blaze tomorrow!
Yay Nathan and Byron! <3

**New layout.. spiffy hey ;)
Later Days*
~God Bless!

Hey blog,
Well, Y.E.S. was this weekend, and on Friday I was so unbelievably excited... like.. so pumped. I was going to watch Kaylee go through an unbelievable experience along side Liz, and just watch them gleam with happiness. The dancing, the surprises, getting to hang out with Aaron and Kayla, I was uber pumped...
That is until I got sick.
Yup, that's right blog, at 3:30 in the morning I came down with the flu, one of the worst I think I've ever had. Mike and Greg (sweetest guys ever awe thank you both so much for making me feel a bit better) took me home. I was bawling my face off (during and between occupancy keeling over a toilet) because I knew I was missing out on something unbelievable. I know things happen for a reason and I think I already know the reason, but you know that sometimes doesn't make it feel better. I was really looking forward to this... but God has his plans to make things work out for the better.

It seems everyone has gotten so much closer during the weekend, new friends were met, old friends were regained, and while a bit of me is jealous I couldn't have been there to share in the experience, I know I have a great amount of friends I can count on, and something like YES doesn't need to emphasize it. Letters would have been great, but I mean I've gotten my share, I know what people say and feel. I can't wait to work at the next one, I really can't, although I just wish it was tons sooner. But I'm so going to the re-encounter lol... that's the least I deserve =P So other then not eating anything for 76 hours now.... being sick almost 20 times... I'd say all in all was a weekened of reflection....
And not just my own within the toilet. =P
School tomorrow.. I need sleep.
Later Days!*
~God Bless <3

I'd much rather laugh with the sinners then cry with the saints. Sinners are much more fun.
-- Billy Joel

I'm sorry.. but that is a SWEET quote lol.

And when the night winds starts to sing a lonesome lullaby, it helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky...
-- American Tale

If you want the rainbow, you gotta put up with the rain.
-- Dolly Parton

The only real person you need to know is you.
-- Alice Cooper

It's a great day to be alive, I know the sun's still shinin' when I close my eyes. There's some hard times in the neighbourhood, but why can't everyday be just this good?
-- Travis Tritt

AND FINALLY

I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean. Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens. Give the heavens above more then just a passing glance, and when you get the choice, to sit it out or dance... I hope you dance.
-- Lee Ann Womack

Which to choose?

You'll have to see until tomorrow!!!!!
Y.E.S. IS TOMORROW! WOOT WOOT!!!! CAN'T WAIT!
I love the world right now hehehe I certainly decided that! Basketball game tonight.. I WAS ON TV! SWEET! haha my voice hurts from yelling though. Tyler did really really well.. so why isn't he played more? What? haha Kayla.
Later Days!*

P.S. Chedder Broccali soup and chedder and herb bread tomorrow... YUM.
AND FIRST PERIOD SPARE! =D

Just a quick note...
I'm so pumped for our presentation tomorrow.. holy cow!
But I have so much homework to do so hahaha I just wanted to let you know I was still around =P
Later Days!*